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The Golden Notebook Book Review (#89)

Book: The Golden Notebook by Doris Lessing

#89 on the Telegraph’s 100 novels everyone should read.

Grade: F

What is the story about?

This book is very complicated but I will try my best to describe it. It follows the life, or is mainly about Anna Wulf, a disgruntled, divorced, communist writer who is dealing with, among many other things, writer’s block.

She has 4 notebooks: 1) a black notebook (about her past in Africa), 2) a red notebook (mainly about the British Communist Party), 3) a yellow notebook (to write fictional stories in), and 4) a  blue notebook (her diary). At the end, she tries to combine the four notebooks into one golden notebook.


Wow Ms. Lessing, I hope you have found the peace you deserve because I honestly don’t believe you were 100% ok while writing this book.

I imagine Ms. Lessing was brainstorming what styles should she write in: should it be a memoir? A novel? A diary? A short story? Let’s just do them all so I can show the world I am capable of each.

Then she brainstormed topics: should it be about politics? Communism? Race? Feminism? Relationships? Mental state? Depression? You know what, Let’s just do it all in one big book because hey why not?

But having all these loaded topics all in one book just makes it so messy and actually takes away from whatever message she was trying to make in all these topics. (I’m sure there’s a lot more topics she tackled but throughout the 620 page mess of a book I forgot them).

This takes me to another point, this book is so freaking hard to read! There are no chapters. It is sectioned off in parts that supposedly should free women (free women 1, 2, 3, 4, and 5). What is ironic and hilarious is the greater you get into freeing these women, the crazier it all gets until Anna comes close to a complete mental breakdown.

The build up to this mental breakdown is so intense and described in such scrutiny that you can’t help but get sucked into the darkness as well.

But low and behold, at save the women number 5, it took an American wanderer 3 days to magically heal her by pulling down all the crazy newspaper cuttings on her wall. This “healing” took place over a max of 4 pages, while the complete and utter breakdown took 600 pages to build up and explain. (This is why I believe Ms. Lessing was not in a very healthy state of mind while writing this as she described anxiety, depression, and the breakdown of reality so realistically, but did not realistically write down how this woman got out of it).

So each section (except saving #5) starts with a ‘real’ scene in Anna’s current life, mainly with her daughter Julie and her friend Molly. Then it goes through the four different notebooks, which to me where as follows:

  • Black notebook –> complete degeneration of society & disregard to any morale code anyone follows.
  • Red notebook –> hypocrisy of politics; lies people on all sides of the political spectrum say and do for their individual gains.
  • Yellow notebook –> relationships; mainly being the mistress; the ‘other’ woman (progressive, unbound by social norms yet they all define themselves by their men).
  • Blue notebook –> mind numbingly boring conversations between Anna and her psychiatrist; oh and a list of her ‘meaningful’ dreams.

But, Doris Lessing did stay true to one main theme throughout the entirety of 630 pages: sex. This includes: extra-marital sex, homosexuality, female orgasm, endless sex-capades, and last but not least, a detailed study into an insect sexual encounter.

If I come across as angry throughout this book review, yes I have to admit I am angry. This book was a complete waste of my time. I even googled why the heck this book won a Nobel Prize.

Bottom line is, if you have a choice whether to read this book or not, my advice is: run! Run as fast as you can in the other direction. Do not waste your time on this insanity.

Next book on the list: Eugene Onegin by Alexander Pushkin. Hope this one is good after two disappointing reads.

Happy reading!

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Under the Net Book Review (# 90)

Book: Under the Net by Iris Murdoch

# 90 on the Telegraph’s 100 novels everyone should read.

Grade: D

What is the story about?

The story starts with Jake Donaghue being kicked out of his current living arrangement. He is almost broke and doesn’t hold a steady job as he is an ‘intellectual’, as he puts it. He sometimes translates book as a way to get money.

He then goes on a crazy journey that is filled with past loves and acquaintances, skinny dipping in the Thames, stealing a dog, some politics and some philosophy, only to find himself coming full circle and ending up where he started off: homeless and almost broke, just with a dog.


Why does one read books? To learn something? To be entertained? To follow an interesting story? To tick a title off a list?

Well I did tick the book off my list.

Was I entertained? For the first 100 pages yes, then it became very slow, and picked up a little at the end.

Did I follow an interesting story? It was a really crazy storyline with a lot of different episodes; but it might’ve been too crazy for me.

Did I learn anything? Not really. No wonder the philosophical book Jake published was a complete flop as the philosophy in this book was a bore to me and without any real substance or meaning.

Maybe the whole point of the story is to not be a lazy, immoral, opportunistic bum and to actually get a job (Jake decided to get a job at the end of the story).

And definitely get a dog (but not steal one). The only character I liked in this book is Max, the handsome loyal dog. Makes me kind of think of saying yes to my son when he keeps nagging to get one. On second thought, I don’t think I’m ready to take care of a fifth baby lol.

I can’t really say much about this book. It was a light read. It was entertaining for the most part. But will I recommend it to my loved ones? No.

Next book:

# 89 on the list: The Golden Notebook by Doris Lessing.

The Telegraph explains it as having some communism, women’s liberation, and “inner space fiction.” No idea what that means .. should be interesting.

Till next time ❤


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Mini Reviews Books 100 – 91

Merry Christmas to everyone celebrating and happy holidays!

I finally finished the first 10 books on the Telegraph’s 100 greatest novels of all time. (well not really I stopped reading 2 books based on principle, more on this below).

So here it is: an overview and mini reviews of the first 10 books on the list.

# 100: Lord of the Rings by JRR Tolkien


Grade: A
Favorite Quote:

Some believe that it is only great power that can hold evil in check. But that is not what I’ve found. I found it is the small things. Every day deeds by ordinary folk that keeps the darkness at bay. – Gandalf

Mini Review:

I usually hate anything too whimsical and unrealistic. I need to be able to relate to something to love it so imagine my great surprise when I LOVED this book. Tolkien is a genius! Amazing read!

Click here to read the full review.

# 99: To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee


Grade: B
Favorite Quote:

The one thing that doesn’t abide by majority rule is a person’s conscience.

Mini Review:

Great book, wonderful moral and very powerful message. That being said, I understand why the book is studied at middle school (high school) levels. Can’t wait till my kids get to read it!

Click here to read the full review.

# 98: The Home and the World by Rabindranath Tagore


Grade: C
Favorite Quote:

What I really feel is this, that those who cannot find food for their enthusiasm in a knowledge of their country as it actually is, or those who cannot love men because they are men, – whose needs must shout and deify their country in order to keep up their excitement, – those love excitement more than their country.

Mini Review:

It is an honor to read a book written by a man who wrote the Indian National Anthem and get a greater understanding of the political struggles in the region at that time. But, its philosophical writing made it a bit of a hard read for me.

Click here to read the full review.

#97: The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams


Grade: C
Favorite Quote:

This planet has – or rather had – a problem, which was this: most of the people living on it were unhappy for pretty much of the time. Many solutions were suggested for this problem, but most of these were largely concerned with the movement of small green pieces of paper, which was odd because on the whole it wasn’t the small green pieces of paper that were unhappy.

Mini Review:

This to me is a one liner book. On the book back cover, the Washington Post Book World calls it “inspired lunacy.” I think it’s more of lunacy with some inspiration scattered through.

Click here to read the full review.

# 96: One Thousand and One Nights by Anon

1001 nights

Grade: n/a (stopped reading based on principle)

I honestly can’t believe this book is so popular and considered one of the classics. The racism, sexuality, and vulgarity in it is repulsive. I not only refuse to continue reading it, but refuse to actually have it in my home.

# 95: The Sorrows of Young Werther by Johann Wolfgang Goethe


Grade: D
Favorite Quote:

All the high-flown schoolteachers and tutors agree that children do not know why they want; but that grown-ups too tumble around like children on the face of the earth, not knowing where they come from or where they are going, acting as little from true purpose, and just as ruled by biscuits and cakes and birch rods: no one really wants to believe that …

Mini Review:

The story was very sad; not as in heartbreaking sad, but pathetic sad, Young Werther, Come on! Be a man, get over it and move on.

Click here to read the full review.

# 94: Midnight’s Children by Salman Rushdie


Grade: A
Favorite Quote:

… where the truth is what it is instructed to be, reality quite literally ceases to exist

Mini Review:

Beautiful. Amazing story where history comes alive and emotions are so raw, your heart aches for them. Loved it!

Click here to read the full review.

# 93: Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy by John le Carre


Grade: A
Favorite Quote:

“We’ve had enough.” He took back the report and jammed it under his arm. “We’ve had a bellyful, in fact.” “And like everyone who’s had enough,” said Control as Alleline noisily left the room, “he wants more.”

Mini Review:

This is not an action filled spy story but a gripping psychological thriller that is so beautifully written. It will keep you engaged and intrigued from beginning to end.

Click here to read the full review.

# 92: Cold Comfort Farm by Stella Gibbons

cold-comfort-farm-673x1024Grade: C
Favorite Quote:

Here was an occasion, she thought, for indulging in that deliberate rudeness which only persons with habitually good manners have the right to commit…

Mini Review:

Apparently, this book is a satire. And going through this book, you really do feel like the writer is trying to make a joke, but you don’t really know at who or why you should laugh. So yeah, I don’t get the joke really.

Click here to read the full review.

#91: The Tale of Genji by Lady Murasaki


Grade: n/a (stopped reading; based on principle .. again)

Second book from this list (and ever) that I decide to stop reading. I approached this list with an open mind, just like I approached this book. I was adamant on finishing all the books I read, no matter how ‘boring’ they are.

But, I realized, there are books that I can’t read based on what I personally believe and my principals.

Just like the 1001 nights, I stopped reading this book when Genji kidnapped a child from her home and forced her to sleep next to him even when she was crying for her nanny. That was it for me really.

There it is. Overviews and mini reviews of the 1st 10 books on the Telegraph’s 100 greatest novels of all time.

It only took me over a year to finish these. At this rate, it will take me 10 years to finish the list lol. Hopefully now that my almost one year old boy is staring to sleep better, I can get more reading done.

Next read:

Under the Net by Doris Lessing. I always get excited when its a book I know nothing about. Hope it is good and I get to write the next 10 reviews in less than a year.

Happy reading!

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Cold Comfort Farm Book Review (#92)

Book: Cold Comfort Farm by Stella Gibbons

#92 on the Telegraph’s 100 novels everyone should read.

Grade: C

What is the story about?

The story follows the adventure of Flora Poste, a 19 year old recently orphaned young woman, who decided to go live with her relatives, the Starkadder’s, on Cold Comfort Farm. She quickly took it upon herslef to clean up their gloomy lives and ‘make things right.’


I don’t really know what to make of this book really. Apparently, it is a satire. It is a parody on Jane Austen, D.H. Lawrence, and the Bronte sisters’ work although i can’t really see the connection at all. (I am very familiar with the Bronte sisters and Austen’s work, not so much Lawrence.)

Going through this book, you really do feel like the writer is trying to make a joke, but you don’t really know at who or why you should laugh. So yeah, I don’t get the joke really.

As for the storyline, Flora Poste makes herself out to be the Fairy God Mother of Cold Comfort Farm. She first transforms Elfine into Cinderella, helps Seth be a movie star, and sets everyone in the right direction so they can finally achieve their ‘happily ever after’. Then suddenly, at the end of the book, she remembers that she is only 19 years old and sadly, did not get her happily ever after and calls her lover to come whisk her away to find her own happiness.

I would’ve given this book a D except that it was an easy and pleasant read. So Gibbons’ writing style is the only thing that pushes my rating to a C .. barely though.

————————- Next Read —————————-

#91 on the list: The Tale of Genji by Murasaki Shibiku.

This is the 3rd bok on this list that can be used as a weapon as well (1000+ pages). The first I loved and still holds the top ranking of books I read in this list, the second I refused to finish (1001 Arabian Nights) because of its vulgarity and racism, and actually gave it away as I do not want it anywhere in my house.

And this is my thrid. We’ll see how it goes .. though being written 1000 years ago makes me a bit worried lol..

Happy reading!

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Book: Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy (#93)

Book: Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy by John le Carre

#93 on the 100 novels everyone should read.

Grade: A

What is the story about?

The story is about the British secret service, called the ‘Circus’ in the novel. There seems to be a mole within the spying agency. George Smiley, a retired member of the circus, was called in to sniff out the spy. But the question remains: “Who can spy on the spies?”


All I knew about this book before picking it up was that it is a British spy novel. I was hoping it to be like a James Bond movie. Turns out, it was much better!

Thinking of spies, you usually think of gun totting action in the dark. But this book was filled with intense psychological action instead of physical.  True, it was a bit confusing at first with all the characters (at one point I thought JP and control were the same person lol) and there was a lot of industry related jargon that some I still don’t know what they are, but the story line was amazingly written and gripping from beginning to end.

John le Carre is a pseudoname to a man who actually worked in this field (spying or intelligence gathering). Only a person who was on the inside can write a story so realistic. It is not one of those: Oh I am a superhero spy that can jump on buildings and walk through walls. It shows the painstaking work that goes with being a spy, the going through numerous files for days on end, cross referencing and trying to find one discrepency to catch a lie.

** mini spoiler **

The book is generally about espionage, trust, and loyalty. There’s a British mole who sold his country and friends out to the Russians. He tried to explain later that he did so on the grounds of morality and principle. Who’s side are you on in the cold war? Who do you want to win which inevitablly means whose ideals do you want to win and want to live under? This British gentlemen chose the East’s ideals, thus betraying his long time coworkers and friends by feeding the opposition with crucial info and busting all the circus’ missions, and by betraying the man who loved him. Which takes us to the next important theme: love.

George Smiley loved his wife dearly. This was his downfall, as Karla (the head of Russian spies) believed. He ordered his mole to court Ann, Smiley’s wife. He said this will distort his image of the mole if he knew his wife loved him. It will also affect him when he knows that everyone around him knows that his wife is sleeping around with his trusted coworker. And it worked.

Then there is the fatherly love that Guillam had towards the mole. He saw him as his mentor and wanted to be just like him. And lastly, there is JP’s love to the mole. The mole recruited JP at Oxford and their relationship is hinted to be a romantic one. JP had a feeling that his lover was the mole and actually tried to warn him before JP went on the mission that was supposed to reveal the mole’s identity.

At the end, the mole was captured. A day or two before he went to Russia, he was found dead on the grounds next to where he was held. Who killed him? It was never stated in the book .. but you get the feeling that JP killed him.

This brings us to the different reactions people have towards betrayal.

His friends and coworkers were visibly shaken, but left knowing their lives will go on. His superior was angry but accepted responsibility and acted accordingly.

As for the people who were in ‘love’, Guillam was physically angry at his paternal idol. He sprang forward at him to show his anger and disdain. He expalined that moment as being “orphaned”. His ‘illusion’ was shattered and he finally had “grown up”.

Then there was JP, who is thought to have cracked his lovers neck for the ultimate betrayal.

Then there is George Smiley, the level headed man who even Karla vouched for his excellence. Smiley accepted the betrayal and waited for his wife’s return, which may be seen as an act of forgiveness in the face of betrayal.

The “last illusion of the illusionless man” Karla has said about Ann’s worth to George.

Is love an illusion, as Karla describes it? If so, how will you behave faced with betrayal by this illusion?

I think my reaction would be closer to George’s, though i know for sure my love is not an ‘illusion’.

———————————————- Next Book —————————————–

My next book is Cold Comfort Farm by Stella Gibbons. Goodreads says the book “is a wickedly funny portrait of British rural life” .. The last book i read that portrays British rural life was the most boring book i ever read in my whole entire life (book review here). Here’s to hoping this one is better..

Happy reading!


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Book Review: Midnight’s Children (#94)

Book: Midnight’s Children by Salman Rushdie

#94 on the 100 novels everyone should read

Grade: A

What is the story about?

The story follows the life of Saleem Sinai, who was born at the same time of new India. Saleem, and a thousand others, were born alondside the birth of a nation. Because of the significant time of their birth, all 1001 “midnight children” acquired magical powers. The story unfolds and changes as the path of their new found nation changes as well.


This is the exact reason why I started this journey, following this list of 100 books. I would’ve never picked up this book browsing in a book store. Not really a fan of fantasy or anything whimsical, I would never choose to read a book that follows the life of a person who can sniff out people’s thoughts and emotions.

But I loved it and was greatly moved by it (thank you list for making me read this book).

Turns out, Saleem is a very good story teller. I don’t really know why some say it’s a hard read (maybe I’m comparing it to previous reads from this list which were mostly a struggle to read) as I found it flowed very nicely.

It’s like being told a bedtime story by your grandmother: yes sometimes she gets a bit off track, yes sometimes she skips events and gets back to them later, yes sometimes things she says can’t possibly be true; but you know you are completely mesmerized and can’t wait till the next day for her to finish off her fascinating story.

But the thing about this story that really touched me is the history. Saleem’s grandfather was from Kashmir, he was born in Bombay, moved with his family to Karachi where the India-Pakistan war happened, then later the Pakistan-Bangladesh war took place.

Why is history so violent and sad? And why does it keep happening over and over?

Saleem, fighting with his adopted country, found his childhood friends fighting on the other side. Why were friends and families fighting so visciously against one another? Yes I realize I don’t know all the history behind the conflict, but it just hits you hard when reading the book.

Fighting with Pakistani troops, they shunned their opponent’s as the “others”; the Hindus; the vegeteranians. “Vegetables always lose to meat”, they said.

When labeling them as “others”, us against them, it is easy to dehumanize them and forget they once were childhood friends and family.

Then, Saleem Sinai and his Pakistani troops found they were not assigned to fight the Hindus anymore, they wouldn’t “kapow the vegeteranians”, they were ordered to kill their “brothers”, the Muslim region of East Pakistan which later became Bangladesh.

And they didn’t only kill. Ten million refugees fled from the war to India.. 10 million. As Rushdie explains, 10 million … is a number that refuses to be understood. 10 million of mothers, fathers, and children. 10 million of grandpaernts and grandkids who were all originally brothers and sisters from one country.

Shahhed and I saw many things which were not true, which were not possible, because our boys would not could not have behaved so badly; … but it was not true because it could not have been true, the Tiger was a decent chap, after all, and our jiwans were worth ten babus…”

Shaheed, when he saw all the devestation the war caused, said:

No buddha – what a thing, Allah you can’t believe your eyes – no, not true, how can it – buddha, tell, what’s got into my eyes?

Saleem (buddha) replied:

A person must sometimes choose what he will see and what he will not; look away, look away from there now.

But we shouldn’t look away. When will it stop? When we stop labeling people as “the other.”

So the next time you see someone different, something you don’t understand, a Hindu or a Muslim, Turban wearing or Hijab, black or white or yellow ..  whatever the “other” is, stop focusin on what makes them different and just remember, we are all humans, with mothers and fathers praying for us, and children waiting for us; no matter what our religion or color is.

Yes, this book really moved me, not just because Rushdies is an amazing writer, not just because of the magical world created, but because, to me, it was a strong political statement.

Stop the hate .. Spread the love!

The only thing that was a bit dissapointing is that book 3 (the novel is divided into 3 books) was not as good as the ones before it. I understand Rushdies used this scection to tie up loose ends, to bring the book to a definite closure, but it wasn’t as powerful as the previous books. Also, the recurring 1001 number and even Shahrazads name reminds me of ‘that’ book, the only book I ever started and refused to finish :/

All in all, amazing read! I recommend it to everyone really.

Next book: Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy by John Le Carre. A British spy novel .. like James Bond hopefully .. will find out as soon as my Amazon package arrives.

Happy reading everyone!


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Book Review: The Sorrows of Young Werther (#95)

Book: The Sorrows of Young Werther by Johan Wolfgang von Goethe

#95 on the Telegraph’s 100 novels everyone should read

Grade: D

What is the story about?

The style of the book is like a diary. It is a set of letters from Werther to his good friend Wilhelm. And the entire story is about his forbidden love to Lotte, a girl already engaged and later married.


What can I say? The story was very sad; not as in heartbreaking sad, but pathetic sad.


You have a man, who cries and wails the entire novel about how life isn’t fair, how he loves a girl (whom he knew was engaged before he met her) and can never have her.

He keeps the self pitying theme going on as he tries to hold a job, but left because (gasp), his boss doesn’t give him enough credit. He quit and went back running to Lotte where he slowly loses his mind and decides to kill himself.

What is the point of this story? Your life is over if a girl doesn’t love you back? If a girl dumped you, lose hope in life? Quit a job as soon as it gets a bit rough and uncomfortable? Give up when things don’t go your way?

And who is this Lotte anyway, that deosn’t only make one man go mad, but two.

The only thing I liked in this story is his lovely description of the nature around them. That’s it really.

Next book: Midnight’s Children by Salman Rushdie. I look forward to reading a book with a bit more substance. Hopefully it’s better that what I’ve read so far.

—————— Note about book #96: The Arabian Nights: Tales of 1001 Nights—————-

I never started a book that i didn’t finish. When I start a story (even movies), I need to know the ending no matter how boring or silly it is.

I guess there’s a first time for everything as I refuse to finish reading the book. The racism, sexuality, and vulgarity in this book is repulsive. It does  not deserve one of my daughters bookmarks in it. 

I will happily make it a journey of 99 books instead of 100 if it means I can throw this book away!