So as promised, after every book I will check my weight and see if I lost any.
Old weight: 90 kgs
New weight: 88.5 kgs
Total weight loss: 1.5 kgs
I am actually happy with that. I didn’t think I will lose anything really. To everyone who wants to start a weight loss journey, the first thing you have to do is to be perfectly honest with yourself. So I stopped comparing myself with moms who bounced back after having a baby in just 2 or 3 months. I stopped comparing myself with photos of moms on social media. And I started being very honest with myself. What exactly did I want, and how is it that I can reach my goal in the most likely and possible way?
Goal: I wanted to lose at least 10 kilos, more would be nice.
How to do it:
I know that I did not want a crash diet. I know that I did not want a quick fix. I wanted a change in lifestyle and I knew I had to do it slowly. For some people, going cold turkey works. It works for them if they stop chocolates and junk food all at once and replace them with healthy food. For me, I know I will fail miserably if I did that. So I took it one step at a time.
So my first step was: conscious eating.
What is conscious eating? I found this article online that explains it beautifully:
Sitting in the crowded theater, with the trailers rolling, my seat suddenly started vibrating. After a moment I turned in search of the vibration’s source to discover a fidgeting young man tapping his foot against my seat. He caught my eye and stopped instantly. The movie began and so did the vibration. I turned, he stopped. We continued this dance throughout the movie. He was embarrassed each time I turned. The fact is, this poor guy had absolutely no idea he was tapping his foot against my seat. Because he was unconscious of his tapping foot, he had no means of stopping it.
That exactly sums up what unconscious eating is. Just like this young man, I sometimes (ok maybe most times) eat unconsciously. Meaning: if you ask me what I had for breakfast, lunch, or dinner I can tell you exactly what I had. But if you ask me what I snacked on, what I had in the middle, what I had when I was agitated or angry or nervous or tired or worried or scared, my answer will be I don’t really know exactly.
The article goes on to saying one of the most important lines I read:
“It is impossible to quit doing something unless you know you are doing it.”
So my first step of getting my act together is: eating consciously. I was conscious about how many times I opened the fridge when I was frustrated and how many times I raided the pantry when I had a screaming baby who refused to sleep. I didn’t totally give up snacking, or chocolates, or the occasional fast food outing, the only difference now is that I was conscious about them. So I guess it worked. Because I knew exactly how many cookies I was eating, I didn’t have that much. Because I knew it’s the middle of the night and I was just frustrated and not hungry, I didn’t munch.
All in all, I am happy. Looking at it this way, if I lose 1 kilo for every book I read, and I plan on reading 100 books, I will be in the negative. Now if only I can think what my next steps are. Wish me luck.